It's now been one year since we started all our paperwork to begin our adoption. I really thought by now we would have a referral and be close to traveling. I can't believe the twists and turns adoption takes. There have been many times I wanted to walk away from everything but I keep being pulled back and know we are suppose to continue. Raising the money has been more difficult than I thought. As soon as we seem to be making progress a big unexpected expense will come along. (having to buy a new van for one) We have moved and downsized our home to help save more money. We just received an unexpected donation from a family member. It was a true answer to our prayers!
We are now pursuing an independent adoption route. The agency we were with had many problems continue to arise with families and their adoptions. It was a really hard decision to make to walk away from the money we already spent with them. I just don't feel confident that our adoption could continue with them without serious problems. As problems were reported by other families I was trying to keep an open mind and give the agency a chance to correct the problems. I continued to pray and as much as I didn't want to walk away I know we need to. I'm nervous as we begin to start over but hopeful we are doing the right thing.
Since it's been a year we have to update all our paperwork. We will have to submit an updated homestudy. Here is hoping to a productive year to come!! Hopefully by this time next year we will have our daughter home!! Amaya sure can't wait either. She is still constantly talking about her sister.